goin bananas

two bags full of bananas?!!
what would i do with them?!!!

My Sweet November

Ang bilis ng panahon,isang taon na pala ang lumipas. Ganitong buwan ng nakaraang taon ng ako ay muling ngpatuloy sa buhay ko ng isang tao. Nagtiwala, naniwala, nagpahalaga, nagmahal.

In fairness, naging masaya naman ang buhay ko na kasama sya. Makulay. Maganda. Yun nga lang di nagtagal. Parang kandila, nagbigay liwanag, pero naupos din ang mitsa.

Di lang ngayon nangyari ang ganito sa akin. Makailang ulit na rin ako nagpatuloy ng tao sa buhay ko. Mga taong inakala kong magtatagal at magmamahal ng lubos. Parang tanga lang? Hindi naman. Sadyang kailangan mo lang sumugal para makita ang taong ika nga ay itinadhana. Trial and Error kung baga.

Ang sabi nila, may 3 uri ng tao ang dumarating sa buhay natin. Kung minsan, hindi natin agad nalalaman kung ano ang importansya nila sa buhay natin. Kinakailangan muna nilang mawala para matutunan natin ang kanilang halaga. Kung minsan naman, umpisa pa lang alam na natin sa ating sarili kung bakit kelangan nating makilala ang taong ito.

     1. Ang mga taong dala ng panahon. Eto yung mga taong nakilala at nakasama natin sa isang okasyon o pagdiriwang. Nakilala sa isang party, isang bakasyon. Nandun lang sila sa panahon na yun. Pero kinabukasan wala na. Kilala din ito sa tawag na one night stand, summer love, college fling. Sila yung nagbibigay sa atin ng sobrang saya pero agad ding nawawala. Nglalahong parang bula. Sila yung nakasama nating subukan ang mga bagay sa unang pagkakataon. They let us experience the “Firsts” in our lives. Sila yung nagturo sa atin ng mga bagay na akala natin ay di natin kayang gawin. Mga taong nakasama nating tuklasin ang “the other side of us”

     2. Ang mga taong nakilala natin dahil sa isang rason o kadahilanan. Dumarating sila sa oras na nangangailangan ka ng tulong. Sa panahong akala mo ng iisa ka. Para silang mga anghel na hulog ng langit. Ang sagot sa iyong dalangin. Nandyan para mgbigay ng tulong - balikat na masasandalan. Ngunit kung minsan, kasama sa pagkawala ng problema ay ang paglaho ng mga taong ito.

     3. Ang mga taong itinakda. Sila ang iyong destiny. Ang iyong “Happily ever after…”  Sila yung dumarating pagkahaba haba man ng panahon ng inyong paghihintay. Sila yung panghabang buhay. Sila ang taong pinaglaanan mo ng lahat ng aral na natutunan mo sa buhay. Yung taong hinding hindi ka na iiwan.

Hindi natin alam kung kailan natin sila makikilala. Pwedeng ngayon, bukas, sa makalawa, Sa November o sa December. Ang importante, maging handa tayong tanggapin at kilalanin ang bawat isa sa kanila. At kung sila ay aalis, wag nating pigilan. Sa halip, palayain natin sila at isapuso ang aral na natutunan sa piling nila.

Ang bawat taong pinapatuloy natin sa buhay natin, nag iiwan ng marka. Merong permanente, meron panandalian. Ang bawat marking ito ang huhubog sa atin para maging karapatdapat sa taong itinakda sa atin.

My Happy Ending

With the best of my ability, I sing along with Avril Lavinge. Putting stress in every heartbreaking words of the song “My Happy Ending”.

♪♫ You were all the things I thought I knew and I thought we could be.

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were next to be supposed to be

But we lost it ♫♪

I was so devastated. Yes, it’s an understatement. The person who I thought is the answer to my long hoped and prayed for dream of a happy ever after just broke my heart into pieces. There was nothing that could describe the pain. I wanted to shout. I wanted to run. But all I could do was silently cry.

It was a whirlwind romance. I met him through a common friend. We dated. We talked over the phone for hours. We exchanged thousands of text messages. We had sex, quite a few of them. I met his relatives, he met mine. We spent the Holidays together. We started building dreams. We started planning our future - All in a very short span of time.

We fell into the perils of rushing into love. Without really thinking what we were getting in to. Without really knowing who we are. We were consumed by the feeling of being in love; never realizing that love is not just an emotion. We thought love is all happiness; that it’s all hearts and flowers.

We were wrong and we learned it the hard way. Our relationship ended as abruptly as it started. Since the foundation that we lay was unstable and we never took the time to keep it sturdy, with a little tremor our relationship came crumbling down. Along with it are the happy memories – the good times, the dreams, even the friendship.

We didn’t get to talk. We didn’t get to say our goodbyes. We parted with a heavy heart. We were full of anger; full of pain. Never understanding what took place. Never realizing where we failed. And never knowing where we were heading.

Oftentimes, we are lured by the promises that love has to offer. We are excited with the new experience that comes with being “in love” and “in a relationship”.  We rush into love without truly understanding what love is about. We don’t get to realize that most of the time; we are just in love with the idea of love.

Remember that there is more to love than just dating, holding hands or kissing. Love is not just an emotion. It is a commitment. A commitment to help each other become better individuals. A commitment that is renewed every day. Love entails sacrifices; it requires giving a part of you. And sometimes, it also means not expecting anything in return. Getting involved with someone is exciting and fun. But we must also consider our responsibilities towards our partner and ourselves. It is an emotional investment.

There is no rushing love. Get to know each other. Set clear expectations early on. Build friendship and strengthen it. Treat each day as a chance to get to know the person that you would want to spend your life with and an opportunity to get to know ourselves more.

We have to keep in mind that in order to love others, we must first love ourselves. In order to love ourselves, we must first get to know who we truly are. If you feel like jumping into a relationship or saying yes to someone you just met, take a step back and think. “Am I ready to be in a relationship with this person?” “Am I ready to commit myself, my time and my emotions to this person?” “Do I see myself with this person in 2, 5, 10 years or more?

It’s okay to take it slow. If things will work out for the both of you; you will have a lifetime to spend together, so why hurry? Pause and think things through. It’s your happiness that’s at stake so why go with hasty decisions… Love is something to be cherished forever… Don’t you want your story to end with “And they live happily ever after”?

♪♫ You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were next to be supposed to be, But we lost it

And all of the memories so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending ♫♪